As I sit here relaxing, Ive been reflecting on the past year... and WOW talk about a 180 Difference. The past 12 months have each had an effect on my life that shocks and scares me, yet also excites me.
Aug 08: [An Unrealised Event]
It seemed nothing more than a summer of failed relationships, I finally gave my self a break to the single life...well...for a short time anyways, and luckily for me during that break, I met the love of my life. Aug 11, I met Adam (my husband), on his birthday of all things at the Illinois State Fair. Did I realise he was going to be my husband at the time... NO! It's nuts... I can't really remember squat from any of my past relationships, but with Adam I remember everything! I remember what both of us were wearing, what we did, and our first Hug. August 08 was an amazing great month...well until I sadly lost contact with him (momentarily)
Sept 08: [A step towards the future]
School starts. It took me 2 years to bust my butt to pay back NCMC to go back, little did I know that when I got back... I had no clue what I wanted to be. I had so many ambitions for myself that I couldn't really decide on one... so I persewed several at once finding that I fell in love with two things: Biology and Cosmetology. Of course college had a few distracting details (aka...boys, parting, and a new social life) so to my sad misfortune, i began to fall back into the same path that I did at NCMC.
Oct 08: [A painful Goodbye]
Wow, this month was tough for me, VERY! Besides school happening I lost a very dear friend and somewhat father to me. My Grandpa Jim. He was my biggest influence to Biology due to his love of the outdoors. From the time I was born to the time I was 9 my Grandpa and Grandma took care of us kids when my parents worked. It was tough, it was my real first loss of a family member, yeah... I know my Great-Grandpa Leonard passed away back in 2003, but I never even talked to him or connected with him like I did with my Papa. Beyond losing a dear friend, I started yet another failed (and this time...highly stupid) relationship, lucky for me... it lasted only a month, and that was when Adam and I got reconnected.
Nov 08: [A New Awakening]
November was amazing. School was beginning to get better (only because it was almost over. haha). Adam and I were in the full swing of "causal dating" and there was one thing that struck me off guard, He showed me respect, and attention that I had never really known, and the week of Thanksgiving we decided that "causal dating" should turn into "serious dating". (Thank God... It made me happy!) I got to spend my first Thanksgiving with him and we accomplisted two things: Eating and Cuddle Time. =)
Dec 08 [Holidays! Yummm!]
I can truly say this was the happiest Christmas season I had ever had. I was surrounded by the poeple I love the most, I've always had somewhat of a dish with Christmas ever since I was little, My family didn't have alot of money to buy us alot of presents, but I was raised that it's not about material, its' about Christ and the love of family and friends. This was the year where i was blessed with it all. Adam and I were in Love (don't worry we still are...lol!), I got to spend alot of time with him during this time (and sadly...fatten him up with goodies, along with myself!) Then New years eve, I got to spend the new year with what would end up being my new life :)
Jan 09 [back to school....again]
Nothing really happened during January besides being in an amazing relationship, school starting, and oh yeah....Beginning a new experience: Student Teaching. I decided that I wanted to take my biology skills to a new level. I honeslty thought that I wanted to be a teacher, but after a semester of teaching at Williamsville High School, I discovered that It wasn't the true passion that I wanted to do...but I stuck with it
Feb 09 [my 22nd birthday]
Nothing really happened in February, I turned 22. School, Adam, work and Teaching was about all I did. Sorry... February is usually pretty lame for me. LOL
March 09 [a true realization]
March was a BIG month. I decided that it was time to leave my job in Greenview and transfur to Sherman (still Casey's...yes...I'm a loser) Adam and I realised that we truly loved each other, and out of smiple decision...decided that marriage was an option, well until I almost messed it up. Adam and I had hit a stumbling block (which was 100% my fault), and I almost lost the most important thing in my life to me, I learned that day never go on sudden judgement, but to think out my actions. ( I owe Adam for probally one of the greatest life lessons I needed to learn). After that Adam and I grew closer, realising that we were made for each other.
April 09 [A new life created]
This was the life changing month in both our lives. We had wedding plans in bloom. We were set to be married August 8th, well... then one day (and 5 pregnancy test later) Adam and I discovered that our family of two would shortly become a family of three. The baby is due January 7, 2010. We were both excited, shocked, and scared. We honestly wern't ready to start a family, but aparently It was our time. So shortly after discovering baby Fagan, we decided the wedding plans needed to speed up. I also moved into Adam's studio apartment... it was cute...but WOW was it small! Not a 2 people place!
May 09 [becoming Mrs. Fagan]
Adam and I decided that getting married the sooner the better. We wanted me to get on his insurance so I could visit the doctor regularly for baby. So on May 9th, Adam and I were married at Washington Park. It took us one week to plan the wedding and yet the wedding was perfect. The weather was amazing. Nice and cool, the sun was out, a little windy but nice. I never had any doubts about marrying Adam (and I still don't). Shortly after the wedding, Adam and I moved across the street into a fairly good sized one bedroom apartment, with F'd up neighbors.
June 09 [1 word - PUKE!]
June was nothing more than 24 hour nausha, and I feel terrible that I drug Adam trhough all of that. Although I was able to see our baby at 6 weeks, I was continously sick. Then right in the middle of the month the ER and I became buddies. What I though was spotting turned into two major infections. I'm thankful they were caught in time too. Past that June was just sickenss, work, and a crappy way to start a marriage.
July 09 [stress turns into blessings]
It seemed that my continous sickness was putting a strain on married life. It sucked. Newlyweds should be happy to spend every moment with there new partner, and yet I barley got to spend any time with Adam where I wasn't sick, moody, or both! And then...angles smiled upon me. after 15 weeks of Nausha I began to feel better, and eat, and FINALLY I was well enough to acutally begin to be active again! Work however felt it necessary to act upon my wellness and yep... I was magically pushed to 6 weeks of non-stop work... eeeeeeeek! Adam and I have decided that the one bedroom apartment just isn't big enough for a growing family, so we have found a 2 bedroom house, even though our landlord is a douche.
Aug 09 [and where we're at now...]
One year has passed and as you can tell, what a change! I went from swingin single, to becoming a wife and soon mother. The thing is, Through the up's and down's I can truly say that it as been nothing but blessings from God. He has given me a wonderful husband whom I can rely and love greatly, a heatlhy baby (that at the moment is enjoying a pint of Ben and Jerry's Ice cream along with me), wonderful friends and family. I truly am thankful for everything I have in life and the blessings yet to come. Adam and I are moving into the new house this weekend, and then we're taking our honeymoon (a few months late) to Chicago. I've never been so this is something really exciting for me, and Adam seems excited to go too. We will celebrate his 25th birthday up there too (what a better way to spend your birthday then in a town you love to be in).
The rest of 2009 [sooooooooo much!]
Adam and I found out the sex of the baby on August 21. We do have names decided (well sorta... the girls name is decided anyways... Madison Elise, the boys' were between 2) Adam is in the process of starting a band up called Two for Flincing. I'm exited for him to being this project. He is an amazing musician, and I'm happy that he wants to furter his talents (and being the wife of a drummer is hott in my book.) Past that, Im looking forward to what the next few months will bring :)
